The way he kissed my forehead reminded me of A. so much. But it is different in the way that when A did it, i felt safe and I know I will always be his babygirl but with W, he made me feel ‘liked’. I want to break it off. I feel so certain about it, that I want to break it off. The only thing I am lacking is the courage to do it and the strength to hold myself back from crying when he leaves. I know I will cry, after all, he is different.
Last September, I found somebody. A great guy indeed, carefree, charming, funny, all the good stuff. I did not expect it to last till today. And the thought of wanting to break it all off been on my mind for the longest time. I found no reason. But isn’t it the nature of a fwb stuff is to get out whenever we want to without the need to a specific reason? There is nothing wrong with him, may be something wrong with me. But it is better to leave now when things are perfect and that we would remember each other with happy memories. I admit that I am a coward. And it is necessary step for me.
Another chapter closed.
I remind myself it will be good in the long run!
Here to a better me and a brand new chapter of my adventure!
Since Monday, I found myself, again, torn between feelings and emotions. I always knew as soon as I see him again, I will fall all over. I came home and cried after that night. What should I do and how should I deal with my feelings? And here I thought I already over him. We never dated. But why are these feelings are so strong? Hannibal said people tend to be very vulnerable when they depress. May be this is true. After all he is also a sad person. That is all we have in common. I must make myself believe though… That we are not meant to be together.